Hello,
January 1, 2012. I realize my course in miracles journey seemed to be on a hiatus. Honestly, the course itself was on the back burner. My journey continued without the course. Its it only directionless way. I have without guidance been realizing the divine within and uncovering the obstacles preventing me from being my authentic self....from being love. I have been using various means: exploration in non linear dynamics, reading various religious texts, reading biographies of yogis and others that have wandered on the journey back to love, living with a guru(hes now 6), and experiencing love in its various forms. Im still studying me and learning about me. One of my brothers gave me a push back into the course in Miracles recently I am with gratitude towards this stranger for shifting my awareness back to The course.
So here we are again. I have read (and re-read) a large percentage of the text. The lessons from the course were causing me to shift my perspective on reality. This would in theory seem like a blessing considering that was the objectives. I wanted to change my prespective on the reality I had created, right?!?! Well the blessing had its drawbacks. my new perspectives on life were altering how I was seeing things around me and changing relationships with people irregardless of whether they were aware of my journey or not. I couldn't quite reconcile my new perspective with what society considers normal. I felt even further alienated rather than being part of the whole. It was odd considering an approach that was supposed to return me to universal consciousness actually resulted in feelings disconnectedness. I laught at how ironic this situation is. It was difficult to function and relate to others when my viewpoints were so obviously askew. I now no longer am concerned. its time to open my eyes and see through the illusion.
You are welcome on my journey back to love.
Every day that I read exerpts from A Course in Miracles I am either learning new concepts, solidifiying pre concieved ideas, shattering "old truths" or seeing life from a whole new perspective. I have re- read the first few sections over again just to discover that the words have changed their meaning. Truths and ideas in lines that I previously overlooked caused me to stop and take notice of the lines I "missed". This book is a gem. anything that causes you to question the world around you and to see yourself in a different light is a mustread.
Chapter 1. The meaning of Miracles
V. Wholeness and Spirit
The miracle, like the body is just a learning tool for facilitating a state of being. While on a journey to love the body can easily be used as a vessel for realization. Honouring the body as a temple and loving self are excellent ways to faciltiate change.
We were created perfect and whole. You can see this when looking at a new born baby. You can feel the divine perfection when holding a child. When do we start seeing ourselves as imperfect....as unwhole. These are learned behaviours....they are not what we are born with. We beleive that we are inadequate because of our human conditioning. we have created doubts and fears that seems to decrease our potential. Regardless of how long we have beleived that we are anything but perfect it has not in reality decreased our potential. like all energy the divine energy within us can lie dormant or change its form but our potential is always there. We are lucky because nothing that our ego does can destroy your potential. We did not create it. So I guess were are back to unravelling the false beleif systems so that we can become whole once again.
Realization that you have everything and that you are everything.
God is not partial. All his children have his total love and all his gifts are freely given to everyone alike.
If you beleive that you are deprived of something then your perception becomes distorted.
We are special not because of our exclusion but because of our inclusion.
Spirit is unalterable because it is already perfect. The mind though will elect to choose to serve learned behaviours and beleive systems which create doubt within us about our perfection.
Returning to a child like state is one way to unlearn our beleif systems and to return to who we are...perfect divine love. The fact that I am blessed with a divine soul that I care for allows me to see how I was as a child. Obinna allows me to re live the life I cant recall with clarity. Obinna is a self taught swimmer, tap dancer, singer and musician. He has taught african drumming and african dance lessons to others. He does various martial arts and his confidence in his abilities far out weighs his actual talent. He IS amazing because of his belief that he is amazing at all that he does. He also recognize that the gifts he possesses can also be possessed by others and that "they just need to try". He is also willing to extend himself to teach others but also acknowledges that "they already know they just need to remember". He claims that he knows how to do everything but that he just has to remember. I dont think that this is ego I honestly beleive that we all have unlimited potentional we just have to beleive. His path in life makes me realize that the atonement is already present for most of God's children and that the rest of us need to just be accepting of it. He also truly recognizes the gifts that other possess. He doesnt feel threatened by the gifts that others have because he recongnizes his own talents and gifts. He celebrates others realizing their potential withoutht it affecting his "shine". One day over the summer he wrote out a list of all his friends (mostly adults) and listed the talents that they had and then spoke to them about sharing their talent with the world. He amazes me. Apparently my only talents are love, healing and cooking. I'll take that....apparently in the dancing department I just need to practice more....alot more.
Obi has a amazing beleif in himself. There is nothing that he fears and nothing that he is not capable of. He is still only 6 years old so his thought processes and his ideas of who he is is still quite ingrained in the divine. He beleives that he has super human powers and is working diligently honing those skills and preparing for his life of saving the world. Its amazing to witness this. Not once have i told him that this isnt possible. I just keep feeding his beleive that he is amazing and will achieve what he sets out to achieve. He also loves so completely and without reservation. He doesnt see the world as a threat but an opportunity. He believes he can achieve. He believes that he is amazing. I am sure that we too believed we were amazing when we were younger that we were capable of manifesting anything that we dreamed about. I am sure we all believed that we were destined to achieve and failure was not even considered. Opportunities outweighted oppressive thinking. It wasn't until we obtained learned ideas and constructs from society and those influencing us that we "realized" that maybe we werent the smart, talented, pretty, kind, etc that we thought we were. At some point we deviated away from our birthright of unlimited potentional, or divine greatness and started believing that we werent really all that special. We saw flaws that others inadvertendly pointed out to us. (why cant your hair he straight like your sister). We all started believing the dream and stopped living. We forgot that we were perfect just as we are. We as adults can look into the mirror and see all the flaws that society has told us that we have without clearly seeing the perfection in all its glory.
These shallow roots cannot sustain us. They are not real. We need unlearn these lessons, unplay the tapes and go back to our state of perfection. God doesn't make mistakes.
VI The illusion of Needs
Only perfect love exists........nothing else is real.
The illusion of need is almost laughable considering the current social climate. Media, hollywood, advertisers pretty much have this chapter of the course cornered. We have whole industries that create the illusion of need. There is no way around it. We need to act a certain way, look a certain way, drive a certain car, vacation certain places. Media sources tell us how to spend our time and our money so that we can be normal. From the time we are little we are bombarded with images of material items we need to have, physical attributes that are desirable and ideals we need to achieve. None of this is our own. This illusion was fed to us throughout our lifetime and is serioulsy preventing us from truly living. Its the whole butt implant and bentley illusion of happiness.We cannot be be defined by the superficial items or suituations that are creating our our reality. None of that is real. ( Que india.arie "I'm not my hair" then fade out to some buddha inspired beats. )
Prior to us separating from God we lack for nothing. There was no need. The only lack that truly exists is our separation from God. Everything that we are seeking is inherent....its within us. Thnk about the garden of eden story. It have been retold this story from various religious and esoteric viewpoints and the situation is all the same. We were perfect, beleived that lies and fell away from the perfect state. Going back to the state of eden.....is returning along the path of love. The illusion of need exists to make us feel that someone the state that we are currently in is imperfect. We beleive that somehow a state other than the one that we are in is more desirable......there is perfection in your current state. Take time to sit and reflect on its perfection.
We all live in our own individual realities that is based on our beleif systems and life experiences. Our belief systems are difficult to correct because we created them and modelled out lives around this construct. Breaking through this illusion casts doubt on all that we inherently believe that we are and all the things that our lives are based upon. Its can get a bit messy and difficult to reconcile when you realize that nothing is at is seems and that I am not who I thought I was. the only real purpose of this human experience is to correct your beleif systems and get back to love. All other needs are false needs. Nothing that we truly desire can be found externally.
VII. Distortions of Miracle impulses
Denial of self results in illusions. When we deny who we are we create lies. We align ourselves with how others view us rather than who we are. We are all multi-faceted. we all judge ourselves based on unfair criteria. We compare, we contrast, we judge ourselves and try to change ourselves based on external influences. Why? Let the judgement go.....release yourself from its hold. The judgement is not fair....you are still the little superhero running around in your under roos.....you are amazing. Dont judge yourself for what society has told you is a failure or wrong. Honestly the times in my life that I "failed" were the times that I realized my potential. To deny any aspect of yourself.....whether "good" or "bad" is to add to the illusion. Accept yourself as whole....you are here to learn, love and laugh. Let go of the judgement.
Our distorted perceptions make it difficult for miracles to reach our awareness. How are you supposed to see divine intervention if you yourself deny your own divine nature. open your eyes to the miracles around you. The fact that you are here is a miracle itself.
If you offer miracles you will be equally strong in your belief of them. I feel truly blessed that I have a career that offers me to see miracles first hand on a regular basis. I work closely with poeple who are on a healing journey. My responsibility is to relate with their innate healing mechanisms and be present with the person while the body is returning to a state of ease. It is an amazing thing to be able to experience on a daily basis. The bodys ability to heal is an amazing thing. I am truly blessed. They call me a registered massage therapist but honeslty I am priveldged to witness miracles daily. Of course I beleive in them....I see them happen daily.
A miracle minded persons objectives are to restore the connection we all have. We are all connected and all the same. There are no differences between us. It is my hope that enough of us realize this so that the future generation can know this from the beginning. we need to unify rather than divide and categorize. Awe is inappropriate when connecting with our brothers and sisters because we should not feel awe in the presence of our equals.
Lesson 5.
I am never upset for the reason that I think.
This idea, can be used with any person, situation or event you think is causing you pain. Apply it specifically to the cause of your upset. Identify all the sources of upset in your life and do this exercise.
I am not angry at (insert person here) for the reason that I think.
I am not afraid of (insert sitatuion here) for the reason taht I think.
all of our emotional uspsets have the same influence on our neurological or endocrine system. Emotion arising from a minor disappointment and emotion resulting from a relationship break down will have the same physiological affect on the body. For the purposes of this exercise dont place any more importance on one item over another.
This lesson has been paramount for me for the past year. To be honest previously I felt that if I was upset or showed any emotion other than joy that someone in that moment created that. The lover who was selfish, the driver that cut me off, etc....I honestly felt that they were the source of my emotional state. I laugh at this now because I can clearly see that my emotions have nothing to do with the situation at present. It is due to past experiences that I feel the way that I do. I am now able to see that certain people or events can trigger an emotion and I can now on most occassions trace it back to when that emotional state arose initially. It is a powerful process to discover that the reason why i was upset with a lovers action was because i felt rejection at a certain point decades ago. I personally have felt inadequate which is why fears can invoke an emotional response in the present. Our belief systems create the sutaiton and the emotion. It is empowering to know that YOU are responsible to your emotions and how you view a situation.
I am still working through this. Its a tough one for me. In theory I get it but in practice it is difficult to see past the illusion and realize that our emotions are not for the reason that we think.
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